Message in a Bottle

i am never sober. i’m either drinking or not drinking.

Drinking is better.

Ok, sure, Not Drinking makes the next day gay-er. My step is a little lighter when my stomach doesn’t feel like it’s decomposing road kill and i’m praying my bowels won’t choke an ass vomit from my intestines too far from a john.

Obviously, my smile is a little wider when i’m not suppressing technicolor burps and every time i move my head makes me seasick.

Yes, dammit, my mood is ever so brighter without a hangover only suicide can cure, where i spend every painful moment wishing the day would end like a whimpering mongrel with worms finally being put out of its misery.

However–those are all reasons for avoiding hangovers, not staying dry. Is pleasure simply the absence of pain?

That’s why i drink. i drink because not drinking does not make my life better. Sobriety does not make me a better person. Physically, i feel better but it takes more than laying off the booze to make me less lazy, less guilty and less afraid. Changing those sentiments requires both not drinking and actually doing something about it.

A corollary to Drinking Is Better Than Not Drinking: Drinking is easier than not drinking.

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Currently Drinking: Yin-Yang.

Yin-Yang

Hangover Forecast: Foggy… i’ve drunk a bottle of white (Sauvignon) on an empty stomach but it’s only 8pm in Yeman, i’m going to eat for the first time today and, most importantly, there’s no more alcohol left anywhere in the apartment.